Pre medical

and sometimes you realize you don’t remember activities you know you must have done (did I roll through a red light without noticing or was the light green and so I didn’t notice it?)
and so try to remember
is this just absent-mindedness

Then you get a quiet headache, like rain when you need milk
and let it go. I don’t need milk and I just do not remember.
and breathe
and sometimes breath makes the rain in your head melt
and roll down the back of your throat into your chest
to be swallowed by your stomach

and you realize that you have arrived already and think of the dreaded the getting there you do not even remember and you continue you continue about what you were intending to do and think about the absence in your memory, a green light you never saw and forget quickly the quiet headache, the breath and melting and keep only the strange taste in your throat and a vague sense that it feels about 9 o’clock